脚痛~

阿珠的脚很痛！！
一个星期多了~
真希望能拔断我的脚，这样我就不痛了。
脚痛很辛苦
因为，要跑步不能
走路不能走快
就连要下车都难！
谁能帮我拔掉！！
帮我解脱这酸痛

28.3.2011

26 march 2011 is my parents' 25th anniversary.
This is the special wine i ever seen. it is so tall.
haha..
we went to one jaya have our dinner together with ah mah and 2 pek and his family.
nice food but poor service as there is not enough waitress.
Even order drinks also need to wait for so long~~


27th march 2011

i was working at spring as a digi promoter. a busy day. why? coz not enough promoter. I realize that Kuching's people is getting more and more rich dy. They buy iphone like buy drinks.
but for the broadband sales not as good as Iphone. but is still consider not bad la. haha..

den lunch time, xiao xiang them suggest to go to this restaurant, xian ding wei. The food is nice, but the price is also very nice. I order a normal beef noodles, the cheapest one which cost me rm 10.9 per bowl. very sad... coz, after i have my lunch, i got not enough money for my dinner. So i need to wait until i finish work, den go to eat supper.

after my friends they finish their dinner, we went to Starbucks, one of my friend went to meet her friends. so i just follow.
meet ah heng there, he was working that day and he give me a very cute drinks. I duno what flavor, what drinks, but it is cute. see~~~ cute mar? hehe~~~

25 and 26 march 2011^^ yang's b'day

going to yang's birthday gathering^^

yang's 21st birthday cake. very simple one, hope he dun mind.

wondering what wish he made. haha.

This is the cake for ah ming. lol..

and this~ strawberry bun from ah girl. hehe~~ she bough it from singapore.
so happy when received this.
because, it is filled with strawberry jam!!! haha^^

有没有想过？21.3.2011

有没有想过其实你是很孤单的？
有没有想过其实你一点都不勇敢？
有没有想过其实你一个好朋友都没有？
有没有想过其实你是一个很没有用的人？
有没有想过你自己到底懂自己多少？

有没有想过你来这个世界的原因？
有没有想过自己的理想？
有没有想过自己的未来？
有没有想过。。。

有些时候，
当我想找人聊天时，
我， 翻遍我的手机里的电话簿
却不懂该找谁聊？
我搞不懂，
在我身边的朋友
有几位对我是真心的？
又有几位是了解我的？
我，
没有真正了解过我身边的朋友
不是我不要了解他们，
可是，不懂为什么，总觉得我们中间永远都有一格空间
不能完全的无话不说
做没有秘密的朋友
我相信，我也知道
在我身边，除了他，
我没有一个可以真正了解我的人
可是就是有些事情，有些心情，
在我要找朋友聊时，
却没有一个肯借我那么一点点的几分钟
当然有些时候，运气好的话就有人肯借我耳朵
但，你有没有遇过

你有心事时，想找朋友聊，
你的朋友却拒绝陪你出
拒绝你，叫你去念书然后自己跟朋友出？
我，很伤心
那时，我感到我其实就是一个人
没有伴
没有知心朋友
很无助

难道除了男朋友就不能有知心朋友了吗？

我，很失败
因为就连我交了十多年的朋友
我们讲话都还会带钩
还是会有秘密
有时候，
看到别人有好朋友
有超级好友
聊天的朋友
就有点妒忌
很希望我也会有

所以我想，
是不是‘人’本来就是孤单的？
我们一个人来了这世上
有难一人承担
有痛一个人受（生baby )
孤单又不能怪谁
或许，真的该学学怎么独立了！
过一个人的生活

16.3.2011

what should i do now to make myself feel better?
i am super duper nervous now.
worry for the exam
scare i forget everything i studied.
Whatever. all the best ba~~^^

BAD DAY, BAD MOOD, STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!$$$$$$$$$$$$$

He spoiled my study mood. He go to ask money from his dad for me to study. i really dun understand why he can ask so much money from his dad for me. how they will be looking at me now? just to get money from them?? duno la! me jiu si no mood now. duno how to say la! feel bad! very bad! why he never discuss with me. why he never think from my position. why he never ask me. how his dad will be looking at my dad? failure? no money for daughter to further her study? why like tad?! We are just friend now. JUST FRIEND!!!! WHY HE CAN DO IT THIS WAY? EVEN IF IT IS JUST 20K FOR THEM. THIS IS NOT A SMALL AMOUNT TO ME. EVEN IF I HAD NO MONEY I CAN STILL LOAN, WORK HARD AND EARN THE FEES MYSELF. WHY NEED HELP FROM OTHERS?! I REALLY DUNO WHY! I REALLY HOPE HE CAN HELP ME THINK A LITTLE BIT LA. SPOIL MY MOOD! BULLSHIT!

WHAT CAN I DO NOW? EXPLAIN TO HIS DAD? OR WAD OO? HOW AM I GOING TO FACE HIM? DUH!!!!! DUH!!! THIS LITTLE KIDS WHY NEVER THINK FOR ME?! YOU ARE JUST INCREASING MY STRESS.!!! I REALLY SPEECHLESS NOW. FEEL LIKE KNOCK THE WALL NOW. WHY LIKE TAD!!!! KNS!!!!

13.3.2011

This coming wednesday exam dy. so today i was thinking to go out have a drink with frens coz long time no out dy. haha.... tot can go relief stress a bit but fail to date friends. So it is still better to stay at home since the plan is fail. hahaha... fine~~ drink at home also same... lol. but no ppl accompany=( sad. haha..

tomorrow wung wung is going to have her exam dy. so wish her all the best in her exam. hehe...

choo going back to study le. actually a bit disappointed la. haha. coz really feel like wan to out=C

11.3.2011

fine, fail to achieve the target today. Remain unchanged, i just give out free pop corn. felt so bad to them. sorry, as i cannot hit the target. tomorrow still got chance, really hope i can sell out at least one.

today, the promoter there told alex lai, ( the agent that i worked for maxis last time) bout my thing. they took my picture,send to him. he called, they pass me the phone. gosh!!! and now, he start msg me and talk sweet talk to me. feel so gelik. the way he talk is just too straight. cant accept it. EEEEEeeeEE!!! think tiok jiu gelik. hmmm... but hope he dun find me work la.. lol. coz the salary difficult to claim de. hehe...

and, still got ppl ask me wan do waitress at one of the tabuan lounge(per night tips can up to few hundred), clerk( key in data only, but salary rm 1000+). but duno dun really feel like wan to do le. lol. duno la.... better stick to my nokia promoter and digi promoter. hehe...

10.3.2011

Start to regret for accept the Nokia road show. Daily target 3 phones which cost rm 1995. Common sense please.... it is so CHEAP!! how to sell. duh. not like Nokia C3 which only rm 520. this is double!! wapiang. but today i went there just to give out the free pop corn. lol. coz i really duno how to sell. dun care about the target stuff. it makes me stress!!

Today, yan ting msg me and told me miss chuo, my lecturer is looking for me. Then i start regret not attending her last class. i start to worried bout my study.start regret. hmm.. exam next week. hope i wont GG. i will still do my best de. not just best but VERY best. Wen xian said, dun aim for pass, but aim for D. fine, that's not my style now. i just hope i can pass. lol. as my study is getting tough. hmm... hopefully everything is going fine.

Tomorrow, the second day of my work, hope i got some sales. or else they will start complaining again. hope no demo set for me, den i can continue give out free pop corn. haha. please some to find me for free pop corn. haha!! i will be at maxis centre ,satok until this saturday.

10.3.2011

有没有想过为自己立遗主呢？我虽然没什么可以分给身边的人。可是，我有很多很多话想对我身边的朋友，家人们说。哈哈。可是今天的我，现在的我有点累，因为迟了，所以得睡觉。明天还得做工。打工赚零用钱，哈哈。下星期就考试了，我为了做工，逃课没去上课跑去赚钱不懂是对是错，可是也不能反悔了啦！因为答应人了，也不能零时退缩，就拼了吧！哈哈！功课，复习，我一定一定会做！

7.3.2011

Friend past away few days ago. Sad when know this news. i though he will wake up and i never expect that he will leave us so early.He is so young!! 19 getting to 20 this year. He don't even to receive his 21's key yet. really too young dy. planned to visit him but fail, because i am not so close to him. but i went there, look into inside from outside and i hope his family will stay strong.

4.3.2011

我今天没去健身
真不像我
不是我不要啦，是现在的状况不是很好
我在家，睡了一个中午，心情好多了
虽然现在没事了
可是回头想想泪水还是会不停的流下来
整天没他的信息，不懂是好事还是坏事
也好啦， 冷静一下可能就会没事了
把你赶回家不懂是对是错
可是我就是不懂要怎么面对你
你，对着我喊骂已不是第一次了
真的有点伤心
还记得上一次，你差点就动手了
你不要否认！ 因为我记得非常清楚
我们都懂，这不是我们要的
我知道的
我现在真的很想知道我在你心里到底算什么？
不过我懂，你是不会来看我的部落格的，还是算了吧！

燕婷，洁怡还有班上的同学，对不起， 让你们担心了
今天在班不是故意要摆出一张臭脸
给我时间，我会没事的。
不要担心我

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i think it is nice. Do you?

每天要面对的选择，很多。

吃什么，做什么，玩什么，看什么...

虽然你每天都在做选择。

不过，总是...总是...

会选回你每次选的那个。

因为习惯。

习惯，是时间累积而来的一种动作。

情人间常说：「我对你不再有爱，都变成了习惯了。」

其实，习惯并没有什么不好。

它让你自然的去做。

自然的去想他，自然的去爱他。

当你已经不觉得自己在付出时，

也许你觉得，你己开始习惯，有他陪伴在你的生命中，

那才是真的爱。

有什么不好？

习惯，

我一直认为：

很多事情开始要一个人独自去做时，

就失去它的意义：

当习惯了两个人一起吃饭；

习惯了两个人一起看书；

习惯了两个人一起工作；

习惯了两个人一起散步；

习惯了两个人一起回家；

习惯了两个人一起聊天；

习惯了两个人一起商量事情；

习惯了两个人一起发呆；

习惯了两个人一起喝咖啡；

习惯了两个人一起……

开始一个人，

很多快乐都不再了...

请珍惜你身边所有，

把握任何一个美丽的机会，

失去了就不再了...

现在请你回想一下：

你习惯的那个人，是不是让你感觉很熟悉，就像家人一样？

这种感觉，不是那么容易就可以拥有的，应该好好的珍惜。

也许有天你失去了，才会明白这个人，

在你的心里占了很大的位置。

如果我们之间存在着这种所谓的习惯。

那我希望可以长久一些。

3.3.2011

你诚实问问你的心，你爱我多少？
问问你自己到底对我的爱有没有变？
问问你自己有没有珍惜我？
问问你自己有没有看到我为你所付出，所做的事？
你有没有珍惜过这一切？
我对你的付出并不是理所当然
你曾经对我而言只是个陌生人
但是现在却是我最亲近的人
这几年，我对你的爱只有增加，没有减少
你呢？为什么我什么都没看到？
为什么我哭，你还忍心对我大喊？
为什么你忍心看我肚子饿
为什么你忍心看我为你流泪
你记不记得你说过我的泪水对你来说是珍贵的
你记得吗？
我想，你应该忘了
回头想想，我真的很笨
我身边的朋友都叫我珍惜你
说你的好
我珍惜了，你呢？
我。。。真的很无言
我心痛
你又知道吗？
为什么我只感到我们之间的安全感减少了？
为什么？
男人，都是一个样！　
还没追到，甜言蜜语，承诺一大堆！
在一起了以后全部都是废的！
废的！！！！！！！　
我真的不应该踏入爱情的世界
之前重来没后悔过
现在，我。。。　后悔了！　
这世界本来就不属于我的
不是我该来的地方
是你
是你把我带进这世界
是你让我觉得我是被爱被珍惜的
是你让我感到有人需要我的爱
我爱了
我爱疯了
你呢？
我真的想知道我对你来说算什么？
２０１１　年才过两个月多
我们又闹纠纷了几次？
你。。。算过了吗？
爱，不是这样的
真的。
我的心真的很痛
我不要这样的爱！

3.3.2011

现在的心情很复杂
忙了一整天，晚上又去打羽球
真的把我给累垮了！不过今天的我过得很充实＊很开心＊
可是，刚刚收到文贤的简讯说要去吃宵夜
难得我真的想要破例一次
都准备好了才说取消了
真的有点气！！！　
所以我现在有点不开心
有想要煮面来满足自己
可是却不敢了
怕胖＝Ｃ

再多一个星期就考试了，
真的得多加一点油了
真不希望又多一科不及格
希望洁怡，燕婷，铭，杨，达，还有其他的，都能考取好成绩。　

还有还有！！！　
我变得越来越不喜欢你玩游戏了！
多么希望能banned掉dota！！！　
因为你会因为游戏而忘记我。
我很讨厌！！！！！！　
就连游戏都比我重要
真是气死我了！！

Because of dota, u shout at me!
who is right now?
do you know how much you hurt me?!
you can just act like nothing happened
I CANT!
I HATE DOTA
THE FOUNDER OF DOTA NOOB!
BULLSHIT!
HATE IT

1.3.2011

曾经，有人这样跟我说过
“如果有人作弄你，你只要不理他，不给他反应，他觉得不好玩他就不惹你了”
意思就是说，就比如你想要作弄一个人。。。心里想的就是“玩”， 就是要看他的反应。
可是如果说你作弄的那个人没给你反应，就等于“不好玩”了，自然而然你就不会继续作弄他。
这，是一种自我保护
我都在忍。人家作弄我时我都在忍， 不给他们反应
可是这次我认不到， 因为我是真的很怕。 之前都还好，忍得住可是这次我失败了。
丢脸！一点一点就哭！真没用！
有时候我真的不是故意要哭的，我也不想长这么大了还想小孩子那样是个哭包，被同学嘲笑。
铭今天也真是气死人！我真的不懂该气他还是什么。不果我感到非常抱歉，因为他被我打了一顿。真是有点对不起。